No updates just random

So this weekend went by faster than expected. I didn't get much done which is disappointing but I tried. The weeks have been secretly frustrating and I just needed to write. I still have no clue if my job is going to be eliminated but we have been assured that some people will be displaced. I honestly hope it's me. I need something to take my crutches away. I've been leaning on them for so long I need some sort of major push to take the American out of me. I haven't been lazy but I've been going through the motions which I honestly think is worse.

I have so much music it's ridiculous. I also have a ton of lyrics that don't go with the music it's double ridiculous. I think I'm going to try and song write different ways. I'm ready for Miami though. I have no doubt that when I get on that plane I will have music ready to show off to the world. I guess the hardest part is being true to yourself. I want to be known as a musician who's music connects well with people and not be a full of shit musician like so many are. The sad thing is not all of them are but are stereotyped that way because of society.

I was doing something I never do today. Watching Television. I only watch on Mondays for one reason. Nashville Star. I don't know if anyone who reads this watches it but I've seen Gabe Garcia live and he is a hell of a musician. I truly wish the best for him and that he becomes the next Nashville Star. That man is the definition of a dreamer at work. He gave up a lot to move out to Nashville and it's paying off. He gave me some inspiration and reinstated the fact that normal people can get record deals.

It's the weirdest thing starting over really. Starting from scratch is easier said than done. No worries though. I'm in no way giving up my dreams. I may be in a coma as of now but one day the dream will become a reality. But as for now I'm just trying to figure out where I am. They says it's a long road to get where you want to go. I don't think I'm even on that road yet. So first off I'm going to find my road. I guess it's back to the drawing boards for now. Oh and for the people who are reading this. THANK YOU. you don't know how much it means to me that you haven't given up on me. It's so great to have people in my life that believe in my dreams. I wish you the best in yours as well. We'll all be happy together :)